Dear Diary,
Today, I've been reflecting on the evolution of my persona over the past few years. I've been this dark, snarky version of myself, using humor to shield myself from discomfort. It's a persona that I believe helped me navigate some of the darkest times in my life, especially as I broke free from my ex-husband's influence. But I've come to realize that this persona, influenced by my online identity, has also kept me guarded and distant from others in real life.
However, something shifted when I met him. He managed to break through my defenses without me even realizing it. Our conversations flowed so naturally, and his thoughtful questions encouraged me to be my most authentic self, something I had almost forgotten how to do. It's a quality in him that I truly cherish and find incredibly comforting.
He's been on my mind a lot, not in a jealous or fearful way, but in a way that brings me joy. I find myself smiling like a dork at the thought of our interactions and conversations. I constantly wonder if he's smiling too, if his day is going well. I just want him to be as happy as I am in this moment, in this season of life.
It's moments like these that remind me of the depth of our connection and how grateful I am to have him in my life.
Yours,
Scarlet
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