Dear Diary,
Today has been an intense and emotional day. I need to confess something that has been weighing heavily on my mind. I had an orgasm without [Dom’s Name]'s permission, and I feel genuinely sorry for my mistake. I appreciate his patience and guidance as I strive to align with his expectations.
After watching hours of videos depicting the D/s dynamics of Jade and her Sir, I became overwhelmed with the possibility of our long-distance relationship transitioning into an in-person dynamic. The thought of experiencing such intensity with him led me to a point where I lost control. I genuinely aspire to serve him in that manner, and while our dynamic will be unique, I fully anticipate and welcome the same level of humiliation and boundary-pushing.
It's been quite some time since I had a punishment, so I revisited our past discussions to see what he previously requested of me. Reflecting on his past instructions, I revised my punishment proposal to incorporate the three components he had asked for. I hope this shows my commitment to making amends and adhering to our dynamic.
For the humiliation aspect, I will write 'disobedient slut' on my chest every morning for the next week and send him a photo. This will serve as a constant reminder of my failure to obey and reinforce my submission to him.
For the painful part, each night for the next week, I will wear nipple clamps and labia for 30 minutes. I'll record and send him the video each time, ensuring he can see my discomfort and my acknowledgment of disobedience.
To prove my trust, I will record a video confession where I admit that he is my master and that he controls my orgasms. I will clearly acknowledge my mistake and express my dedication to anticipating his needs and exceeding his expectations. In the video, I will also blindfold myself and explain that I trust him completely, even when I can't see what’s coming.
Above all, I want him to know that I am committed to being transparent with my sexuality, even when I am not under his watchful eye. I fully recognize my role and will strive to meet and exceed his expectations. My body, pussy, and any orgasms are his alone to control and enjoy as he pleases. I fully understand that I am his sex doll, and my body, pussy, and any orgasms are his and his alone to control and enjoy.
I am thankful for his guidance and for allowing me the opportunity to make amends. I look forward to his feedback and am ready to accept any further instructions he may have.
Yours in complete submission, Scarlet
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