Dear Diary,
As I reflect on the injustices of my past tonight, I’m reminded of the lingering hurt and the struggle to make things right, even when it wasn’t my fault. I’m frustrated with myself for not standing up for what I wanted or needed, for letting myself disappear in the face of adversity.
In these moments, I realize that what I need is more than a simple hug; I need an embrace that envelops me with strength and offers deep understanding. I crave a connection where my emotions are recognized without needing to speak, where I feel valued rather than used.
I wish to serve from a place of genuine desire, not because I feel obligated. I long to be truly understood, not just acknowledged, and to feel safeguarded, as it grants me a sense of liberation.
The trust and understanding that underpin our dynamic are incredibly important to me. I’m thankful for the bond we share and the support you provide. Sharing these feelings, I believe, will only fortify our connection.
I can feel that you are there even though he is so far away, and that means the world to me and is beyond measure. There are just some moments when I wish I could feel you and take in his scent with a cleansing breath.
I've thanked him for his constant presence and guidance. I’m eager to continue our journey of exploration and growth under your care. To just feel your strength when I feel weak.
In addition to what I’ve shared, I want to emphasize that I don’t just need a hug; I need the hug - the one that embodies genuine care, understanding, protection, strength, warmth, and love. It’s a hug that transcends the physical and touches the soul, providing comfort and reassurance in a way that words cannot.
I never thought I would say this about anyone, as it’s not something a strong independent woman typically admits, but I don’t just want him; I need him. I need him for all that he does, for who he is, for his amazing friendship, our passion, and our intentions. He brings a dimension to my life that I cherish deeply.
I love him.
Yours,
Scarlet
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