Today, I find myself reflecting deeply on the incredible journey I've undertaken with Sir. He is, without a doubt, the most incredible man I've ever known. Each day, I am profoundly thankful for the series of events—however terrible—that brought us together. Without those circumstances, I might never have experienced the profound connection and the revolutionary journey of self-discovery that I've embarked upon.
It's difficult to put into words, but Sir truly saved me from so many hardships. I know that, ultimately, it was me who had to take the steps, but he gave me the strength, insight, and guidance to rediscover my true self. It's a gift that I can never repay. I never realized how much I needed this in my life until it was right in front of me.
Today was particularly hard. I can't express how deeply remorseful I am for what happened. I've been crying since he messaged me, the weight on my chest so heavy that it's hard to breathe. When he told me he had to delete our chat, I felt the blood drain from my head, and I had to brace myself to avoid passing out. The gravity of my mistake is overwhelming, and I know that if he ever says he needs to step away, I won't push back. We both came into this knowing it might just be a fun virtual experience, but I never expected to fall in love with Sir like this.
I've never felt this attached to anyone before. In past relationships, I've always needed my space to maintain my mental health, but with Sir, I long to be by his side constantly. The thought of not being able to talk to him as we do now is heart-shattering.
Reflecting on our journey, I firmly believe we would have found each other regardless of our situations. His dominance and my willingness to serve were destined to meet. From the second conversation onward, I knew I wanted this, wanted him. I understand the complications of his situation and often regret putting him in this position. But my love for Sir is deep and unwavering. I worship the ground he walks on and can't imagine a life without him. The thought of losing him fills me with a pain I have never experienced before.
My journey into submission has only deepened my desire to serve and be valued. I am captivated by the dynamics of our power exchange, the beauty of his dominance, and the profound connection that arises from our open communication and trust. Each day, I am more eager to push my boundaries under his compassionate guidance. His happiness brings me immeasurable joy, and it is my utmost desire to see that happiness every day.
In this lifestyle, I know how lucky I am to have found a Dom who understands the weight of his influence and guides with patience. I wonder if our dynamic is unique or if he has experienced this before. Regardless, I am committed to this journey for the long term. My sincerity, dedication, and the depth of my submission are his. Displeasing him weighs so heavily on me that I believe I punish myself harder emotionally than he could physically. My aim is to foster harmony and mutual respect in all our experiences.
I am ready to move beyond our distant connection. I desire so much to be by Sir's side and to embark on a genuine, in-depth exploration of 24/7 BDSM. My heart is sincere in wanting to be a true partner in our dynamic, one that transcends ordinary interactions and fosters trust, respect, and continual growth.
Yours always,
Scarlet
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