Dear Diary,
These past few days, I've found myself stuck in a funk that I just can't seem to shake off. Tonight was particularly tough. There are moments, like now, when I deeply wish I could reach Sir at any hour, despite our odd schedules and the vast distance that separates us across the globe.
My anxiety has been overwhelming, its causes unclear, but I know that if Sir were awake, he would skillfully guide me to the root of my unrest and help me navigate through my tangled emotions until I found peace. I've been attempting to process this alone, and it's becoming painfully apparent that my progress isn't where I hoped it would be, which adds to my feeling overwhelmed today.
However, writing this down, I'm reminded that my needs are simple. Focusing less on material things and more on the small moments that bring inner peace propels me forward each day.
Sir has been instrumental in my journey back to wholeness. His safe space allows me to rest and recover, wrapped in the security of his presence. His firm, unwavering words, combined with his open-mindedness, have redefined chivalry and friendship for me.
Through his attentive commands, I've come to experience the depth of his passion and guidance. It's not that I had low expectations, but through our dynamic, I've learned the true value of different traits and the importance of not settling for mediocrity. Sir gives his all, and it shows. My faith in his leadership and guidance is unwavering, serving as a beacon for me beyond my own self-doubt.
It's my heartfelt wish that our dynamic brings as much joy and light to Sir as it does to me, especially during the darker times. May it serve as his motivation each morning and a comforting thought as he drifts into dreams at night.
To say "I love you" no longer seems to capture the full depth of my feelings. It's more than love—it's respect, a profound connection, our unconditional support for each other at just the right moments, a mutual concern for our well-being, a daily devotion to each other, and the truth and honesty that flow so naturally between us.
Sir is a sense of safety I've never had before. What I look forward to most is being home in his warm arms, taking in his essence, feeling our heartbeats synchronize, and bringing this feeling full circle in the physical world. I've fantasized about our first meeting, about rushing to be alone together, but the truth is, I'll probably cry tears of joy upon that first embrace and hold on as long as I can, so I will always remember that moment.
Yours,
Scarlet
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