Dear Diary, Tomorrow is the 4th of July, and I find myself overwhelmed with a deep longing for Sir. This is our first major holiday since we embarked on our dynamic together, and the significance of the day has made me realize just how much I crave his presence by my side. Independence Day, a day of patriotic joy for Americans, is usually filled with fireworks, barbecues, and gatherings with friends and family. But this year, the holiday feels incomplete without him.
I keep imagining us at a big party, surrounded by friends and strangers, the air filled with laughter and excitement. In the midst of this festive atmosphere, it is his presence that I yearn for, his gaze that would make me feel complete. The thought of standing side by side with him, feeling his warm hand in mine as we take in the celebrations, brings a sense of togetherness that I deeply miss.
Tonight, as the sky lights up with the magic of fireworks, the distance between us will hit me harder than usual. Every burst of color and every resounding boom will be a poignant reminder of his absence. I can picture us standing close, eyes reflecting the brilliant display above, his arm wrapped protectively around me. In that shared silence, amidst the awe and wonder, we would feel an unspoken connection, a silent affirmation of the bond we share.
This holiday, more than any other day, highlights the depth of my feelings for him. It's not just about the grand gestures or the special occasions; it's about the everyday moments and the subtle ways he makes me feel cherished and valued. His guidance, his strength, and his unwavering support have woven themselves into the fabric of my life. Today, I feel the distance between us more acutely than ever.
While he may not fully grasp the significance of the 4th of July for me as an American, this day underscores my desire to have him by my side in all the celebrations of life. His presence would transform this holiday into something even more special, a blend of our cultures and our shared love.
Although we are apart physically, my heart is with him, celebrating our connection and the joy he has brought into my life. I am counting down the days until we can share these moments together, side by side, creating memories that will last a lifetime.
Until then, I hold him close in my thoughts, sending all my affection and longing his way. I am his, in every way, today and always.
With all my heart, Scarlet
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